Today I feel an urgency.
There is almost a sense of impending doom?
This period reverie… these 3 months of monasticism is coming to an end.
What now?
I do not have a job yet. I am not earning money from contract work yet. I have leads I have not explored.
Before I was hospitalised I had a fire in me. I had confidence and momentum and drive. Then I was blindsided. I lost motivation, I lost energy, I got brain fog, I lost confidence, I became uncertain of how good I was.
But I am the same person that I was before. I can get it back. I just have to decide to do it. I have to decide that what i’m doing is the most important thing I could be doing and that I have no choice but to become the best that I can be. And I will become the best that I can be.
I have 6 days before I leave for Australia. What can I achieve in 6 days?
How many projects can I finish off?
How many emails/DMs/leads for jobs can I send out?
How many interviews can I complete?
At least more than zero.
There’s no doubt I am slower than I was before. I’m a bit rusty. I have lingering health problems and obstacles that are a distraction. But so what? Do the thing anyways. What else am I going to do.
So what am I going to do today?
Career:
- Send out an email to Up about the take home coding assessment
- Write two email templates
- Send cold outreach to at least 2 places I want to work
- Write a personal blurb
- Finish updating LinkedIn
Code:
- Complete 3 PRs
- Write READMEs for all of my projects
- Record a Loom of the React Native Transcription App
- Add 2 new features to Felt Sense
- Conversation history
- RAG?
- Build a plan for Reflections